Creation Care Mom

Today you get a bonus post! Surprise!

I’ll be honest. This blogging journey isn’t easy. I felt called, the tug on my heart that wouldn’t go away, but I resisted for a long time. Probably too long. I do believe there are blessings from God that I missed out on because I was too afraid to start.

Fear. Fear of how people I know might see me differently. Fear. Fear of how mean and nasty people can get online. And the irony is neither of those fears have been true. Most people I know are either already in my corner rooting for me or not close enough to even click the link and read. I haven’t had any nasty comments either because my blog isn’t popular enough to be reaching random strangers.

Which led me to a surprise reaction. Last week, I was sitting discouraged as I saw how few people had clicked on my most recent post. I guess, I had this expectation that 3 months in, I would be reaching more than a dozen people each week. I thought by now I would be seeing my audience grow, if only a little. That hasn’t been the case.

I was seeing similar disappointment in my real life too. I decided to launch a community group on Sunday mornings covering creation care (Using the book, Keeping Creation, link). The first Sunday, it was me and one other person. (James was sick so Matt was home with him.) The second Sunday, there were three of us total. Not exactly the reach I was hoping for.

But in sharing my disappointment, I was given these words, no doubt from God, but through a person.

“Let her know, that stepping out in faithful obedience is what you asked for. The results of that obedience are in God’s hands.”

This is beautiful. A mantra, I’ve been repeating for a week. And will likely continue to sit with when I struggle.

Similarly, a friend of mine, Ashley Forsberg, has been publicizing her new self-publishing course (link) through Instagram and Facebook. Last week one of her quotes was, “Your obedience is more important than your success.”

Don’t worry, I got the message. So I’ll be back here on Monday. Following his call.